Lestat, the Rebel Prince

Quand je pense, je pleure.

WHAT? I didn’t know you are a teacher! It’s AMAZING!! I’m finishing my graduation course in Design, and I do want to be a researcher and a teacher :D

I’m not a full time teacher or anything, I just teach some web administration courses and a module in a Digital Design Course. It does have it’s cool stuff, and my dad and two brothers are professors at universities and my mom and aunts are school teachers, but I dunno, I think I’m not cut out for it :p. I do like research more, and maybe someday I’ll start getting the hang of this teaching business ;)

And I have to prepare a 4 hour class for tomorrow. I’m not really into teaching ‘cause I don’t like to talk a whole lot.

I did this last year and I forgot to warn them I wasn’t really going to be available this year so they could find a replacement in time, so now I’m stuck 6 saturday mornings talking away at the School of Design and Architecture.

Also, I’ve just procrastinated waaaaay too much, ‘cause I’ve really had a lot of time to prepare… I just didn’t. Fun.

I asked a friend to teach the course for me, but she didn’t want to…

Also, it doesn’t help I felt like going out and partying tonight.

HELP, send me some love and motivation guys D’:

Je suis trop heureux! Niveau C1!

And not in the good way.

I find a love note that you wrote on one of the last pages of my note block 4 years ago…

Il y a des jours quand je ne peux pas comprendre, je ne peux pas penser, je ne veux pas sentir, je voudrais seulement oublier.

Dans ces jours-là, il n’y a rien qui me fasse vouloir me lever du lit, vouloir rire, vouloir marcher, vouloir respirer.

Je sens la tête lourde, je ne peux pas regarder les gens aux yeux, je n’ai plus de force pour être début.

Si je pouvais aller en arrière, si je pouvais ne pas être ici, si je pouvais changer les derniers mois.

Je maudis mon existence et tout ce qui m’arrive. J’ai tout, mais je sens comme si je n’avais vraiment rien.

Je suis désolé pour écrire ces mots, dans ce moment, mais j’en avais besoin.

Blow me.